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I’ve reached an impasse.
I asked for a chance to change things, now I have an opportunity, and its hard. Its really hard. I wonder sometimes if I’m up to it.
For the past few years I’ve been involved in promotion and production of collectively made movies. Some people call this User Generated Content. I’ve been calling it various things, from creative anarchy to art.
The collective approach has manifested itself in my life in a few key projects: Fast Forward Film Festival, Octopussy, Chicago Independent Television & Grassroots Media Festival and most recently, Death to the Octopussies & Cavallo and The Birds…
So far, much as they appear to be haphazard and misplaced, these projects define any art I’ve produced until now. As they’re collective, I can’t claim credit completely for their success or failure. All I can say is that there’s a piece of me in all of these projects. I put my heart into all of them. I know what they look like, quit telling me they look cheap and weird. They’re supposed to.
Now as I look at these projects, as low-fi as they are, I’m proud of them and what they have to say. I like the fact that they have been original, that they didn’t conform to expectations and that they brought people somewhere they wouldn’t otherwise have reached. Energy. Human energy is harnessed when you give people a context to express themselves.
So there’s a current in the mainstream, a feeling that there might be something to this collective approach. That the crowds might have something to say, and there might be benefits in letting them say it- in providing a context and an incitement to produce. Some people like the ‘coolness’ of it. And everyone loves the idea of allowing people to make movies. And I confess, my motives are selfish- I want to make movies too.
Two projects have landed on my doorstep:
1. DUBLIN- THE MOVIE (title to be determined)- a feature film made in 4 days for the Darklight Film Festival. June 26th-29th 2008.
2. Fast Forward Ireland, a national event in association with RTE, The Digital Hub and Culture Night Ireland 2008. September 19th/20th 2008.
I’m the producer on both. Neither were my idea. I’m honoured to be involved. Think what I could do with these! I feel bold.
These projects deserve my attention, they could be great. I’ve got a limited amount of time.
But they’re not mine. They’re not mine.
The motives are all over the place. I watch as the 4 day feature film pulls itself into familiar territory. Its risky, but not too risky. We’re already cutting people out of the process, and bringing the usual suspects in. The ones in the bottle of the bottleneck.
I listen to the reasons I’m being asked to run the Fast Forward this time around. Reasons that are not mine. Experiential Marketing, associated cool, new audiences…
These are creative people I’m working with. People I respect and admire. But they have their own approach and I have to either conform or find a way through.
I realise that the fight is harder where it matters most. It can be personal. And I wonder if I have the chops to make it matter. If I can back up what I’ve been talking about all these years. If there’s substance to the approach.
Should I cash in?
The alternative is scaring the crap out of me. Blowing it all open, trying to make something out of it by being up front. Running with it and doing it my way. Blasting and banging through the normal things to create something different. The likelihood is I’ll get eaten up. What do I know? I should just go with the flow and see where we end up…
What’s the harm? It feels wrong.
Right now it would be easier to give up on the collective idea, readjust, and do my own thing. For myself. Is it the end of the road?
Can anyone help? Or am I on my own this time?